I think part of what I am doing after coming back to campus is thinking and trying to reason what it is about campus that is making me feel quite peaceful. I have quite a lot of work to do and I am getting through it little by little, but I think just the presence of people around me and the general atmosphere on campus keeps me quite happy (satiated, maybe). Despite facing quite a few issues on the way back at both the airports, long stories not worth recounting, I finally got my peace only when I was on my way to campus. It was like this relief that came over me quite strongly and all was well when I was back inside and saw my friends. Isn’t it quite scary that seeing my friends made me that happy and glad?
Well, to be honest, I think that is the highest form of flattery someone can give you–to know that your presence made someone’s day and that they were genuinely glad to see you. It would probably come up there alongside knowing that something you had done or said or given was cherished and valued by the receiver. Don’t we all, at the end of the day, want to feel like we had done something of some meaning that day? And well, to know that we contributed to someone else’s happiness is to tell us that our day had some meaning (as problematic as it can get to constantly define value with respect to the external all the time). But anyway, that feeds into one of my core beliefs–gratitude, that you should show your gratitude, voice your thanks, put out your gladness so that the other person knows that something they’d done had not gone in vain. In action, in words, in some way or the other, it is always beautiful to show gratitude and for it to be accepted.
Aside from gratitude, any form of affection is beautiful. From hugs to kisses to head pats to smiles, every form of showing care is beautiful. It is extremely gratifying to know that there are people who care, who are genuinely excited to see you and have you present in their life. There are people who run to hug you, people who will patiently handle your luggage for you, people who will sit by you, people who will drop by your room to say hi and offer you food, people who will drive you places, people who will move hair out of your face, people who will tuck your blanket around you when you sleep, people who will quietly turn off the light and sneak away after you’ve fallen asleep. There are people who show affection in so many different ways and to be a recipient of that love is one of the most gratifying things in my life. I think that is one thing I can positively, with absolute surety say about my life–I have been surrounded by love. There are times when that love has seemed non-existent, but surely, if not one kind, then another has existed in my life. And well, it is still beautiful to feel gratitude for feeling gratitude, right?
And that’s my memory for the day.